19th May, 1926


Baba revealed to the mandali:


Before the veil was torn asunder and I became God-conscious, I experienced the greatest [electric-like] shock that created for some time severe, violent vibrations, which are indescribable. This was followed by intense darkness and finally there was Light. The greatest imagination fails to conceive of the idea of this Effulgence, before which the light of the worldly sun is like a shadow of a drop of the infinite Ocean of dazzling Light. Similarly, the darkness I experienced cannot be described.


The world experiences darkness and light, but what I am talking about bears no similarity to these. Very few persons can see the Real Darkness and the Real Light. In the same way, very few experience real pain and misery which begins with the longing to experience God and the intense suffering at separation from Him.


Worldly pain and unhappiness are nothing but the outcome of mental weakness. In fact, no one in the world really suffers except those who thirst to have sight of the Divine Beloved. They feel like a fish flopping about out of water.



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